nice food

bean curd soup~
nice and healthy~
like it so much^.^

privacy

The moodiness came attacked me again~
Feeling lonely although my friends were talking and chatting happily~
All I heard was just voices of chitchatting and laughter~
My mind was not there~
I was surrounded by my moodiness~
I wanted to pull myself out but is in vain~
My mind kept on thinking and pondering~
I know somehow I couldn't find any solution to the moodiness that came to me~
Nobody took note of my mood changes~
I was glad~
I managed to hide it well~
I thought I will be fine when reaching home~
But my room was fulled of people again~
Again i tried to be funny and joke around~
Deep inside still lingered in my moodiness world~
I need to be alone~
I need privacy~
I don't want to think so much~
I'm tired~
Who can I turn to?

kids

A bunch of kids in church~
Playing hide and seek~
Innocent look~
How good of being a kid~
Nothing is too big to be worried about~
Their world is fulled of laughter and joy~
Their thinking are pure and no bad intention~
Although sometime they may quarrel over a very small matter and act like full of hatred~
Actually they only want the attention from people~
Can I also express myself frankly without having to care about others' feeling?
I know for sure...
I can't...
That's why I like to mix with kids~
They won't harm you~
If they don't like you, they will talk to you directly~
No stabbing back~
And just looking at them~
I feel that my problems are gone~

fate

Although i don't want to admit this fact~
This kind of fate keeps on happening to me~
I'm very tired of thinking, guessing, looking, searching...
Maybe I should wait~
Or god wants me to learn from it~
But..
It already follows me for so many years~
Why couldn't miracles happen to me?
I'm wondering, pondering, praying, waiting everyday~
Confused~
Maybe I should stop waiting~
All I have to do is to give up totally~
But..
I will be like a human without a soul~
Nobody will take note of my emptiness~
I'm a living corpse~@.#

不能说的秘密

秘密~本来就不是随便可以听到~可是~我知道了~虽然可以做到一字不漏~可是~我宁愿~我不知道..